Saturday, July 3, 2010
Mad Skills
In the real world, outside of the world of Bourne, we often feel quite different. Incompetent, inept, inane. The good news is that we don't have to be Jason Bourne to get a job done. Jesus ascended and sent the Comforter to us. Not to comfort us the way chicken noodle soup can, but to empower us with gifts of wisdom, peace, joy, and even knowledge. Now that's comforting. No one has more analytical skills, is more efficient, has a higher IQ, or is more resourceful than our Father in heaven. When we give ourselves to Him (our past, present, and future), whatever and all we are, He takes it. He molds it. He leads us to places where all these things can bring Him maximum glory. For instance, I grew up with an absent father who struggled to live life victoriously. As a result, it took many years for me to understand the love of the Father, to see Him as Father God. Initially, I felt I was at a disadvantage, but I wasn't. I got to learn (and am still learning) about the Father's love directly from the Father of all. That's pretty cool. On Saturday, June 19th, I got a phone call requesting that I preach and share of the word of God the following day. Of course, I agreed. The Lord had been calling me aside all week just to teach me specifically about the love of the Father, it depths, it's consistency, it's abundance and surety. Immediately the Holy Spirit confirmed that I should share these things the following day. Not until late that night after I had finished my sermon did I see online that the next day was in fact Father's Day. Not having celebrated it much, I am not generally mindful of the date. So, there I was the next day a woman who grew up without the presence of a father preaching to the fatherless (our church is full of orphaned and abandoned children) about the love of our Father God. It was beautiful and you could see hearts and minds reaching out for, excepting and understanding His love more. It is one small example of how our God is a master planner. When we put ourselves into His hands, nothing is lost. We don't have to be spies to be effective. We just have to be open and accepting of His molding, making, and leading. As clay, we are safest in the Potter's hands. Let Him be your Potter - He's pretty good at it.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Say What?
The United States is a fantastic country. I just spent two months and three weeks there. That is a record amount of time that I have been home in over three years. What a trip it was! For all my friends and family reading, it was fantastic to see you and fellowship with you. What a joy! God moved in wondrous ways, demonstrating to me so thoughtfully that He is my Full Provision. For every type of need, want, desire - He is. Awesome!
While in the States , I found myself struggling against the place He had put me. It's an interesting thing to have no earthly possessions that tie you to a particular place. When overseas I am content with feeling a bit disconnected at times, but when you are at "home" that isn't the desired reaction. I found myself longing to return to India quickly, but for the wrong reasons. I wanted to run back to the mission field because that is where I had placed my identity. So the Lord posed this question to me while I was going through the visa process, "What if I say no?" I immediately rebelled against the thought. Surely, that isn't the Lord speaking. I felt confusion, doubt, hurt, and even anger - all the things that don't necessarily glorify Him. He followed with, "Will you still love me?"
People tend to put certain Christians on some sort of spiritual pedestal, but the truth of the matter is that I have the same number of chromosomes as all of you. I don't have super powers, and haven't been bit by any radio active spiders. The Lord is constantly drawing me back to what my life is all about, where my identity is found- a deep, trusting love relationship with Him. That should be the only reason we do anything, because we are His and He is ours.
And so now with a gentle reminder from the Lord and fully expecting wondrous things, I am very happy to say to my friends in India, "I"m baaaaaaaaaaaaa-aaaaaaaaaaaackk!!!!"
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Question?
Monday, November 23, 2009
Come
God loves me so much that He made sure He sent me to a village that has a coffee shop. I frequent there whenever I get a chance. EVERY time I am there I am greeted by the same young lady who is in her early twenties. She loves to talk with me even though she speaks very little English. When I am sitting reading a book, she will just come near sitting, smiling, saying a few words - always appearing delicate and fragile. Even when I am with someone, she makes sure to become a part of the conversation with a smile and nod. Going to the coffee shop to be alone is out of the question. She is there. She told me recently that I am her very best friend. I am very independent person. I have never been a huge fan of the clingy type. She recently told me, "I have life problem. I have one friend. So lonely. Can you help me? Tell me. What is my life problem?" What a shame it would have been if I had been too busy for her, to give her answers.
Incontestably, I am not the Son of God, but during His three years of ministry He too could rarely be found alone. People were always flocking to Him in hoards. People who needed answers, acknowledgment, and affirmation. Why? He was the living presence of God on this earth. In His company these things were found. When Jesus left He told them that it was best that He left because the Comforter, the Holy Spirit would come. We need not be distraught when people cling to us. We need not turn them away because they may inconvenience us. They are trying to cling to His presence living in you. The world is hungry for Him. My job as His ambassador is to constantly be holding a traffic sign pointing up to Him when people come looking for something only He can provide. We should not be discouraged or even annoyed by the need of those surrounding us. Do we grow tired and weary? Undoubtedly - that is why He promises that His strength is sufficient.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Eventful
Saturday, October 24, 2009
A Force for Him
Monday, October 5, 2009
Gaining More of Him
All of my life I have been a bit of an oddball in one way or another. I have walked to the beat of my own drum. As you can imagine, I never really flourished amongst controlling personality types. My very essence rebels against stereotypes, cultural guidelines, and legalistic criterion. I would have never survived in the 19th century when the simple act of laughing too loudly was unsuitable for females. This is who I am. Walking with Him has taught me some very valuable lessons. Who I am, should be flexible - not inflexible, but viscous. We put our likes and dislikes on a pedestal making them law in our own hearts, thinking these statutes define who we are. So what is the problem with this individualism? Two things immediately come to mind. #1 One would be destined to despondency, unhappiness. All the world isn't conformed to our specific preferences. He should be our delight, not circumstances. If we only do what feels comfortable and pleasing, then we are simply Epicureans who worship at the altar of pleasure. #2 Effectiveness will be limited greatly. The only guidelines by which we should be governed are those given to us in His Word. We should be making it a point not to always "be ourselves," but to be all things to all people. Why? Paul says it best in 1 Corinthians 9:19-23. "For though I am free from all men, I have made myself a servant to all, that I might win the more; and to the Jews I became as a Jew, that I might win Jews; to those who are under the law, as under the law, that I might win those who are under the law; to those who are without law, as without law (not being without law toward God, but under law toward Christ), that I might win those who are without law; to the weak I became as weak, that I might win the weak. I have become all things to all men, that I might by all means save some. Now this I do for the gospel’s sake, that I may be partaker of it with you." So here in India, I find myself doing things that are nowhere in my nature or comfort zone to do for the sake of Him - so that many may come to know Him. I submit to the unique authority system set in place, eat a certain way, speak differently, bobble my head, dress differently, pay social calls differently, eat strange things, and the list goes on. Why? Because these are not life or death issues, and if these small changes will cause me to be all things to all people, will help more people to come to Him - then why not? Do I feel I'm losing a piece of myself? No, I feel I'm gaining more of Him.